About Jackie Trottmann
This page may be about “me,” but my focus is really about “you,” and helping you learn the peace and power that God has in store for you when you learn to be still, let go, and trust God.
Who am I?
I’m an ordinary person who is experiencing an extraordinary life thanks to God’s amazing grace, peace, and presence in my life. Like you, I play many roles. Those roles are: wife, mother, sister, choir member, writer, speaker, workshop leader, artist. I love my church, First Presbyterian Church of Kirkwood, Missouri. I am a Stephen Minister and Stephen Leader. Stephen Ministers and Leaders are lay people who have taken over 50 hours of training to provide one-on-one Christ care to people experiencing a difficult time in life, such as grief, divorce, job loss, chronic or terminal illness, relocation, or separation due to military deployment. In addition, I would call myself a foodie and voracious reader, who is no longer a workaholic, obsessed about my weight, has made peace with God (that’s a huge one), and can sit still for 20 minutes (although my graphic designer says my logo should be a Mexican jumping bean). In those roles I play, I am seeking more play.
For 30 years I maintained a successful career in advertising sales and marketing. On the outside I had achieved material success. On the inside I was emotionally and spiritually bankrupt.
Meditation changed my life. After one crazy work day too many, I turned to a meditation CD a friend had given me to keep me from losing my mind.
I popped it into my CD player and felt immediate peace. Prior to that point, for me, meditation meant doing nothing. I was a busy marketing executive. I didn’t have time to do “nothing.” That all changed after that day.
The benefits lasted FAR beyond the 10 minutes I spent in practice. I received peace, clarity, direction, creativity, focus, understanding, and compassion. I became a better listener, and most important, my relationship deepened with God.
These benefits were too great not to be sharing them with others. If you have a hard time quieting your mind, if you are always reacting and feel that the busyness and stress of life is overwhelming you and stealing your joy, meditation will help you.
Why My Spiritual Path Was Rocky not Smooth
I wasn’t always gung ho about my faith. In fact, I turned away from my faith for 20 years.
Growing up, God was presented as the great score-keeper in the sky who would squish me like a bug if I stepped out of line. My prayers were filled with a lot of groveling instead of gratitude.
I had built up a lot of walls of self-protection. Raised in a home with alcohol abuse and violence, it was very confusing. I had to develop a toughness to survive and cope. Feelings were stuffed down and never shared, which caused me to stuff food down as my source of love and comfort.
The spiritual path that I’ve chosen has involved a lot of unlearning. I’ve discovered that God is not the great score keeper in the sky, but the God of love.
Acceptance is one of the most powerful spiritual principles that I have learned. My father suffered from mental illness. He was not in his right mind and not capable of being the person I wanted him to be. Accepting this fact has allowed me to love, forgive and have compassion instead of harboring resentment.
We have to let go of the past to move forward and to heal. If we don’t, we bring the past into everything, our relationships, our work, our present and our future.
What Do I Do?
I love to create. I specifically love to create resources to help people grow in their Christian faith and grow closer to God.
How Do I Do That?
During a month-long prayer retreat in 2014, I asked God to give me a word each day. God answered. The start of that experience carried on for over two years which resulted in the book, God Notes. God is still speaking when we listen. God provided the inspiration to write these words. These love Notes from God were not only meant for me, they were meant for you. You can read the entire Introduction and read samples of the words. Just click on the God Notes book cover on Amazon to look inside.
A publisher, Dreamsculpt – an Imprint of Waterside Productions, Inc., came to me to publish God Notes. It was truly a God thing! The response I am receiving from readers is also confirmation that this book and its message was to get out into the world:
“When I purchased “God Notes,” I already had three (3) devotional books that I read every morning. “God Notes” is my fourth devotional and it has been the book that I now reach for first every day. The words touch my soul and it feels as if God is truly talking to me. Thank you, Jackie for sharing what God said to you. This book is a winner.” Ronda Blacker
“I have only had this book about a week but the Holy Spirit has spoken to me through it each and every day I have opened it! Put together with all the other resources that Jackie has available, I have been able to grow in depth and peace in my walk with God. Thank you Lord for bringing forth this book through Jackie! May she and all who read it be blessed! Amen.” Tiffany H.
Recorded guided meditations:
The world will ask you to be busy. God asks you to be still. These three unique meditations were created to experience God’s peaceful, loving presence.
Be Still uses the Bible verse Psalm 46:10, “Be still and know that I am God.” With all of life’s demands, Be Still provides the means to step away and “know” God in a deeper way.
Let it Go – 10 Meditative Affirmation Prayers to Let Go and Let God to let go and let God love you. Let go of concerns, the past, mistakes and step into the ultimate person God created you to be.
Trust – uses a prayer for Trust as the foundation of the practice. There is a guided meditation and then a contemplative meditation along with relaxing music. Unlike Be Still and Let it Go, Trust is more of a meditation experience to help relax into a deep place of trust. Many people use Trust to help them fall asleep, including me!
A discount is offered on all three meditations when purchased together.
FREE Resources to Offer You Encouragement: The Guided Life, 7 Steps to Live a Life Guided By God
The Guided Life is a free ezine delivered via email to offer encouragement on your spiritual path. It’s my own personal journal that I share with stories and lessons learned.
The 7 Steps to Live a Life Guided by God is a one page guide for those who want a quick reference to help them. In addition, I send an email every two weeks to explain each step in more detail. These steps have helped me as I desire to live my own life guided by God. Our paths are all unique, but we also share in many of the same struggles and victories.
Thank you for visiting! I hope to see you in my emails. I love hearing from readers and meditation purchasers.
Wishing you peace and blessings,